It just is.
Saturday, November 18, 2017
Sunday, April 09, 2017
The Creative Cycle
April has always been a killer month .. if I learned to say NO to people, I would keep
this month aside and be honest, but I dont .. I see a clearer calendar usually and forgot
to factor in recovery from an always bumper March. I never take time for myself and
I forget about burnout.
Today I googled:
"When I do so much work people are happy and so lots more people ask me to work for
them also, but I cant"
Ok, so not winning any literary awards, but often when I burble into Google I get
unexpected and real results. Someone, usually, has written exactly what I am feeling,
and I find what I am looking for.
What I wanted is: How To Manage Referrals
Because I could work forever.
I turn away that much work I wonder why I bothered working hard in the first place,
if I am just turning away what would be considered to be the benefits. I give it to
colleages, I talk up other photographer friends and why you should go to them, not me.
I'm sad to do this, but also, I use such an enormous amount of time and energy to
produce the work I do, by the time the referrals roll in, as they do, i'm exhausted,
spent, and feeling like a fraud. It's a nasty cycle.
When I feel better and next get a spare moment, I get excited and start the cycle again,
and make promises and changes to myself I break the moment anyway asks me to
help them.
I stop it, then start it, then stop it, then start it again.
So anyway, google.
Google's answer to my question, not the first return, but about the 5th was:
"What is the best way to kill yourself"
Oh. Wow.
Ok.
Thanks Google.
I didnt click on the link.
It's not that dire.
But I do wish I was kinder to myself and didnt carry so much guilt around.
I hate saying no.
this month aside and be honest, but I dont .. I see a clearer calendar usually and forgot
to factor in recovery from an always bumper March. I never take time for myself and
I forget about burnout.
Today I googled:
"When I do so much work people are happy and so lots more people ask me to work for
them also, but I cant"
Ok, so not winning any literary awards, but often when I burble into Google I get
unexpected and real results. Someone, usually, has written exactly what I am feeling,
and I find what I am looking for.
What I wanted is: How To Manage Referrals
Because I could work forever.
I turn away that much work I wonder why I bothered working hard in the first place,
if I am just turning away what would be considered to be the benefits. I give it to
colleages, I talk up other photographer friends and why you should go to them, not me.
I'm sad to do this, but also, I use such an enormous amount of time and energy to
produce the work I do, by the time the referrals roll in, as they do, i'm exhausted,
spent, and feeling like a fraud. It's a nasty cycle.
When I feel better and next get a spare moment, I get excited and start the cycle again,
and make promises and changes to myself I break the moment anyway asks me to
help them.
I stop it, then start it, then stop it, then start it again.
So anyway, google.
Google's answer to my question, not the first return, but about the 5th was:
"What is the best way to kill yourself"
Oh. Wow.
Ok.
Thanks Google.
I didnt click on the link.
It's not that dire.
But I do wish I was kinder to myself and didnt carry so much guilt around.
I hate saying no.
Sunday, July 12, 2015
All.The.Things!
eek!
I've been busy!
I find myself running around town mumbling this under my breath like a mantra:
All!The!Things!
Trying to remember all the places I have to be, all these things I need to do,
all the promises I have to keep..
In the meantime I missed telling you about...
... An Excellent Adventure in Melbourne Town:
and a Shining Jewel by the Beach:
There's also been another two tours, a trip to Japan and more kinders than I can blow
raspberries at .. plus corporate work and all.the.things.
( I started writing this blog post months ago and never finished it O_o ! )
I did mention on my Facebook Page that I am totes booked out this year and have been
referring people onto trusted colleagues, but i've been neglecting this space, so there it is.
I'm bone-tired and have my sights set on 2016. Because this year? Gone. Bye. Hasta.
One day .. hopefully soon ... everything will align and run smoothly and money will just
magically appear for minimal effort.
But, for now, just heavy slog with dubious re compensations :)
xx
Lea
I've been busy!
I find myself running around town mumbling this under my breath like a mantra:
All!The!Things!
Trying to remember all the places I have to be, all these things I need to do,
all the promises I have to keep..
In the meantime I missed telling you about...
... An Excellent Adventure in Melbourne Town:
and a Shining Jewel by the Beach:
There's also been another two tours, a trip to Japan and more kinders than I can blow
raspberries at .. plus corporate work and all.the.things.
( I started writing this blog post months ago and never finished it O_o ! )
I did mention on my Facebook Page that I am totes booked out this year and have been
referring people onto trusted colleagues, but i've been neglecting this space, so there it is.
I'm bone-tired and have my sights set on 2016. Because this year? Gone. Bye. Hasta.
One day .. hopefully soon ... everything will align and run smoothly and money will just
magically appear for minimal effort.
But, for now, just heavy slog with dubious re compensations :)
xx
Lea
Sunday, February 08, 2015
Happy New Year, 2015 Style!
Hello!
I had a very lovely holiday break, I hope you did too!
A bit behind on the blogging ( hmm .. nothing since last October - ah yes, the kinder/
end of year gigantic rush! ), so here's a couple of gorgeous house I photographed in
Adelaide last year..
House Tour #3:
( Architect designed in 1974, this house is both unique and fabulous,
and you can see it up on Apartment Therapy )
Aaaannnnndd... House Tour #4 .. The Sweet Petite home of Brown Button Trading
( again, a feature for Apartment Therapy)
Lots more in store for 2015 .. I spent my break re-branding and re-jigging the business to make
it work better for both me AND those that hire me.
Cleaned out the garage ( kinda ) and sold stuff leftover from the reno or never used etc ..
still more to go. Played with paint colours ( our house is a minty-white which we hate,
but you know, we like to get it right .. )
Did some SHOPPING. ALONE. OMG! I tell people I hate shopping ( really, I dont -
but shopping centres slay me - too many people, too many shops ), but I dumped the kids
for the first time AND had no work ( really? A day? Just for me? ) and hit my two fave
dreamy shopping destinations .. Bunnings ( ok, so any nursery will do really, i'm a sucker
for plants ), and then a homewares store ( in this case, Freedom, on the way home, where
they were having a sale, and OMG, the euphoria!! )
I love getting in there and deciding which plant to love, googling the scientific name
and hmming and haaaing over will I/wont I ? Then I stared at a woven throw rug in Freedom
for mm, 12 minutes? Just staring, feeling, thinking. Wandered off to look as some baskets
and chairs and wandered back to stare and think some more.. perused ALL.THE.THINGS!
And went home happy. That day alone simply made my holidays!
Now the kids are back in school and there's work to do .. returning calls ..
meeting deadlines .. so not ready .. *sigh*
x
Lea
I had a very lovely holiday break, I hope you did too!
A bit behind on the blogging ( hmm .. nothing since last October - ah yes, the kinder/
end of year gigantic rush! ), so here's a couple of gorgeous house I photographed in
Adelaide last year..
House Tour #3:
( Architect designed in 1974, this house is both unique and fabulous,
and you can see it up on Apartment Therapy )
Aaaannnnndd... House Tour #4 .. The Sweet Petite home of Brown Button Trading
( again, a feature for Apartment Therapy)
Lots more in store for 2015 .. I spent my break re-branding and re-jigging the business to make
it work better for both me AND those that hire me.
Cleaned out the garage ( kinda ) and sold stuff leftover from the reno or never used etc ..
still more to go. Played with paint colours ( our house is a minty-white which we hate,
but you know, we like to get it right .. )
Did some SHOPPING. ALONE. OMG! I tell people I hate shopping ( really, I dont -
but shopping centres slay me - too many people, too many shops ), but I dumped the kids
for the first time AND had no work ( really? A day? Just for me? ) and hit my two fave
dreamy shopping destinations .. Bunnings ( ok, so any nursery will do really, i'm a sucker
for plants ), and then a homewares store ( in this case, Freedom, on the way home, where
they were having a sale, and OMG, the euphoria!! )
I love getting in there and deciding which plant to love, googling the scientific name
and hmming and haaaing over will I/wont I ? Then I stared at a woven throw rug in Freedom
for mm, 12 minutes? Just staring, feeling, thinking. Wandered off to look as some baskets
and chairs and wandered back to stare and think some more.. perused ALL.THE.THINGS!
And went home happy. That day alone simply made my holidays!
Now the kids are back in school and there's work to do .. returning calls ..
meeting deadlines .. so not ready .. *sigh*
x
Lea
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
House Tour #2: Apartment Therapy
My second tour is up, a house of fabulousness, I hope you like it!
Mark & Mariana's Artistic Melbourne Home
***
Do you know someone with a cool home?
Maybe it's you?
Apartment Therapy is not about having the best things or the most money.
It’s about real people with real lives. It’s about people that craft a home with what they have
and curate and comfort their nest with a mixture of old and new, of things bought,
of things found or things made with their own hands.
Items that reflect their travels and interests and people that follow their heart.
If this is you or someone you know, get them to flick a few pics my way and say Hi!
You ( or they ) can reach me at: apartmenttherapy@leannebertram.com
Thanks again Mariana - it was nice to get to see a space i've admired on flickr for so many years now.
xx
Lea
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